My first puppy-rescue-mission

This is Bono’s story written as narrated by him. The setting of the story is in the small Himalayan town of Mussoorie located in Uttarakhand state of India. Bono lives at about a kilometre from the Dalai Hills. This is edited by Bono.

I have walked this earth for more than 9 years and have loved dogs all this while.

My love for all dogs is as old as I am. My pet Eva was a part of my family even before I was born. I’m told that my first giggle was with Eva and so was my first walk. I share so many beautiful memories with Eva.

But Eva is not the only dog in my life. I’ve met so many other dogs at friends’ houses, in the neighbourhood and on the streets. I’ve loved each and every dog who came my way, including Bibi who is the only dog to have bitten me. But it wasn’t her fault. I was too eager to touch her in my first visit to her house.

When I meet different dogs, I observe how they behave differently from each other. They have different habits, likes and dislikes. Some are very affectionate while some may be snappy. Some are active and some very lazy. But all of them say so much with their eyes.

I am now learning to approach dogs in a way that is non-threatening to them and safe for me. It’s all about building trust.

Trying to make friends with Tuffy, an energetic and happy little pup in my neighbourhood.
It wasn’t easy to win the trust of Pugli at the house of Harshada Auntie in Goa.

Project Sheru

The three legged dog in a farmhouse in Goa was very friendly.
Somewhere in West Bengal, while the elders were busy having tea, I befriended this little one. We met very briefly.

Project Sheru is the project of building trust with Sheru and his two companions. Sheru is a gentle beast with a peculiar habit of paw-shaking. If he trusts you, he wants you to shake his paw and keep shaking it again and again. And looks like he is a lefty.

I had known Sheru and two of his companions, Mishka and Blacku, for a couple of months. They hang around a small Maggi and egg shop at the top of Dalai Hill. Since lockdown all shops have been closed and tourists have not been coming, so these dogs have been starving. So I decided to take up this project of feeding the trio.

Mishka and Blacku

On Day-1, I rolled and baked 10 chappatis for the threesome, put them in a bag and started walking towards Dalai Hill with Mumma. I was super excited to meet them. As I was climbing up the Dalai Hill, there were questions bubbling in my head. Would I find the three at the usual location? Would Blacku, who’s just a puppy, trust me? Why is he so scared of everyone? Even if I gently raise my hand he is thrown off his feet.

Coming to the main story of how project-Sheru led to the twin-puppies-rescue-mission and then to project mom-to-8-puppies.

Mission Twin-Puppy

Half way through the climb we came across two tiny puppies, rolling and tumbling on the floor. They looked like confused black balls of fur with brown patches over their eyes. They were whining softly, looking exhausted and scared. They would start to yelp at the sight of a cow or of people. Then they would huddle in a corner to feel safe.

I stood there feeling worried about them. Mumma was prodding me to go to Sheru and company to feed them. I asked mumma if the puppies would die of the cold in the night or be killed by other animals. I felt sad.

Anyway, we walked upto Dalai Hill, met Sheru and Mishka and fed them. Blacku wasn’t around. Sheru greedily gulped six chappatis while Mishka ate relatively slowly and finished three chappatis.

With one chappati still in my bag, we started walking back. I was thinking of two things at the same time. The chappatis were too less for these two starved ones and that we must rescue the twin puppies.

We descended to the twin puppies again. I immediately picked them up and cuddled them. I felt that my embrace comforted them a little. Their sad eyes filled my heart with sadness. Where did they come from? Could they climb up the hill on their own? Who brought them and left them here? Who separated them from their mother? I had no answers to these but I knew that leaving them here would mean that they would die.

My Mumma was trying to convince me that we could wait till tomorrow to see if their mother returned to find them. But I wouldn’t budge. Finally I was able to convince my Mom that we need to take them with us.

The Rescue

The two of us with two puppies, started walking home.

We decided that we will keep them in our garage, feed them, provide shelter from the cold and safety from predators and then see how it goes.

When we reached the garage, we found that one of them was slightly smaller and slower than the other one. In fact the smaller one was looking sick. So Mumma spoke to a vet. On her suggestion we gave milk, small bits of pancake left from breakfast and some curd. A little later some powdered paracetamol. Me, Mumma, my friends Kukku and Mansi made a small shelter for them, from cartons, paper and old cloth. Me and my friends tried to give them company and to comfort them. They ate and felt better but continued to whine and look sad. They didn’t cheer up even after our many efforts.

In the meantime, the vet put out their picture that my Mum had shared with her, in her animal lovers group. A boy called my mother that he wanted to adopt one of them. But, how could they be separated. They were too young. They had to be there for each other otherwise they would die of loneliness. So, I protested.

Then Mumma’s friend Srishtee called and said that the twin puppies look similar to those that live in her campus. The prospect of reuniting them with their mother made me extremely excited. Mom asked Srishtee to send pictures of those puppies or their mother. But Srishtee was out, so we had to wait for her to return and send pictures. I know that little babies are the happiest with their mother than anybody else.

We watched Netflix while we waited for Srishtee’s message. The moment the pictures came on my mum’s phone, she jumped with joy. We have found their mother, she said. We must go right away to unite them with their mother. When we went to the garage, we saw them huddled together in the carton, however still whining and wide awake, looking as miserable as ever.

The Sweet Reunion

We picked up one each, cuddled them, held them close to ourselves to make them feel warm and started walking. In our excitement we forgot our masks, phone and torch, but we just kept walking. On our way, Mumma told one of them who was in her arms, that if he was lucky he would find his mother in 5 mins, otherwise he had us. It felt wonderful listening to that.

As we reached the gate, we stopped and looked around. There was a black dog standing across the road with brown patches. She stood frozen, observing us carefully. We put the puppies down. I observed that the puppies suddenly looked smart, active and confident in their posture. They started moving around in a very self assured manner.

We distanced ourselves from them a bit, to provide the space to the dog still standing across the road. The moment we did that, she crossed the road and walked up to the puppies. As she reached closer to them, I felt scared that she might cull them. But on the contrary, she started licking them and they started suckling. It was the most beautiful sight of the universe, the running around, the cuddling, the licking and the happy yelping.

The twin puppies with their mom next morning

We wished “Happy Mother’s Day” to them and to us and walked away with tears of happiness in our eyes. I was grateful for the opportunity to take up this successful mission and project mom-to-8-puppies.

PS: My name is Anoush Vidyansh, nickname Bono. This is not my first rescue mission. It’s second. The first was a tragic failure in which I took a sick pup to a vet during lockdown, but it was too late. He was also named Sheru. This is my picture with him. I think that the second rescue was strongly inspired by the failure of the first.

With little Sheru, a couple of days before he departed, right in front of my eyes.
Meanwhile Project Sheru-Mishka-Blacku continues

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HER-story

Last couple of years I visited few cities in India and occasionally in Korea, Bhutan and UAE, sometimes as a tourist, sometimes as a trainee and sometimes as a photographer. I made the best of these opportunities, as much as I could, by shooting in public places and streets to experience and document the diversity in cultures and peoples.

Female faces, figures and symbols appeared predominantly in my photographs.

I’ve had this knowledge for quiet some time that my lens gets attracted to the feminine. Though it may be difficult for me to say why. I can at best make a few guesses. It could be beauty, aesthetics, colours or something else that instantly catches attention of my lens. On the other hand, it could be something deeply personal, an identification or an empathetic understanding or affiliation. However distinct I may be from the protagonist and her lived realities, we connect with each other at some level. There may be something binding us. Woman to woman. We are likely to share our gendered experiences, even if separated by geography, language and culture.

I invite you to be a viewer of my photo essay woven around the female protagonists captured by my camera, most of whom are strangers to me, though not all.

For me, as a photographer, each portrait is a unique moment in time, when her eyes meet mine, directly or through the lens. That moment may evoke multiple emotions in her ranging from rage, anger, surprise, amazement, astonishment, curiosity, suspicion, amusement, joy, pride or a complex combination of these- bringing about a smile, a frown, shyness, puzzled look, raised eyebrows…. and so on…

Sometimes our eyes meet after the shutter has dropped. I smile. She smiles back. Or doesn’t. Talks to me, or ignores me continuing her work or turns and walks away. Or invites me in and offers water or tea. Expresses interest in me, who I am, where am I from, what do I do. And then there is the inevitable question as to why did I click her picture.

All this happens usually after I’ve frozen my frame. The pictures being candid, offer the viewer the opportunity to observe natural expressions, behaviours and actions in the natural settings of the respective protagonists, where they live or work or commute on a daily basis. The compositional elements in the form of lines, frames, background-foreground and light-shadow help build up the complete story, the whole being greater than the sum of its parts.

As you view a picture in the photo story, it is possible that you may find yourself looking at a poor woman from a third world country sitting there in a traditional attire. Or a so-called modern dressed woman from Seoul or Dubai walking in her high heel shoes. There may be cues leading you to such an interpretation. Your minds may be programmed for this.

But a simplistic and superficial viewing as above may reduce a protagonist to an ‘object’. Devoid of individuality. Devoid of complexity. Simplified. Stereotyped. Evoking pity or sympathy on one hand and adulation and romanticism on the other. They are both different from empathy.

As a photographer, it has been my endeavour to depict the ‘subject’ that each woman is. She has a subjective reality, a personality, a vocation, a unique life experience and an agency; which is what each picture attempts to portray. She is uniquely positioned in relation to the physical environment, objects, animals and people surrounding her. Each portrait is a complex story, is a layered narrative, which is to be seen from her eyes, experienced from her perspective and viewed from her standpoint.

In that sense this photo story is an attempt to make the invisible visible. It is a tribute to each of the protagonists for being the woman that she is. It is a celebration of each unique feminine persona.

However, even when the viewer attempts to view a picture from the perspective of the protagonist, each picture would be interpreted in different ways by different viewers. This is natural and bound to happen. Each viewer would bring in his or her world view. Each unique story then builds a connection between that viewer and the protagonist.

If I ask you to write 3 sentences on any one picture from the story, and you do so, those sentences are likely to provide you an insight into your own values, beliefs and attitudes. And I invite each viewer to do so, to express and share what you see, what you think, what you feel; for any one picture from the collection.

Thankyou for being here !

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Sarita was born in the Banchhada community of Madhya Pradesh who celebrate the births of daughters. Their daughters are bread winners for their families. Like all daughters, she was forced into prostitution from the age of 11 or 12 years. She are raped and gangraped till she accepted her fate. She is now 35 and has borne several daughters who have the same fate as hers.

Paula was a US citizen who was raped by a friend and work colleague at his residence. she took up a legal battle only to find herself standing against a wall. The court said that her ‘feeble no’ was construed as ‘yes’ by the respondent, hence it is not rape.

Satish was 7 years old when he was first raped by his uncle. The ordeal continued over the next decade, with gang rape on three occasions. He could never share with anyone, not even his mother. He obviously never made a criminal complaint. The uncle is now no more.

Rajni was a sub-inspector in Delhi police. She was in love with a boy who was also undergoing police training with her. After few months of courtship she felt that they were not getting along well. She told him that she doesn’t want to marry him. He shot her dead at a metro station in Delhi with an official weapon and later shot himself as well.

Devi was a frontline worker of state government working for eradicating malnutrition. She was gang raped by the village elite to show her her place. After years of struggle with the criminal justice system, the High Court said that high caste men don’t even touch scheduled caste persons, how could these men have raped her.

Simrandeep was 20 years old when she was attacked by acid on the day of her wedding by a former boy friend. She succumbed to her injuries after 3 days of the attack.

Seema was 10 years old when she was dedicated as a devadasi by her own mother. After a couple of years of being raped, she ran away with a lover. The lover sold her in Baina , the red light area of Goa. In a police raid she was rescued, put behind bars and then released in the custody of her mother. The mother put her back into prostitution. In the next raid, she was sent to Women’s shelter home. When an NGO started working on her counselling, it was difficult for her to understand that her own mother had been exploring her and that not all mothers suffering from poverty and destitution put their daughters in prostitution. She is now rehabilitated and works with the same NGO towards rehabilitation of others like her. But she hasn’t got married as she believes that she was once a devadasi, so she has no right to get married.

Akriti was a school girl when she faced sexual harassment on streets on several occasions. Stalking, cat-calling, touching, pinching and on one occasion her left breast was severely squeezed by a stranger on the road. She is today a Police Officer. After 25 years of those instances, she is unable to regain confidence of walking on streets and using public transport. She still sees those visuals as nightmares.

Chinki was 6 years old when she was kidnapped at night when she was sleeping on a cot outside her house. She was missing for 5 days. Her body was found hidden in hay very near to her house. Post-mortem confirmed rape and murder by strangulation. The perpetrator could never be caught.

Radha was working in a superior court. She was sexually abused by the highest authority of the court. She tried to raise her voice against it. She was fired along with other relatives of her who also worked in the same court in different capacities. There was no action against the authority and he continued to scale higher and higher positions in the government.

Gudiya was forced to quit school to be married when she was 13 years old. After 10 years of marriage, she now has 4 children. She works in as a cleaning lady in contractual capacity and earns enough money to be able to feed her children and send them to school. Her husband hasn’t been working in the past 5 years. He is a drunkard and regularly beats her up. In the last 2 years she has been hospitalised 3 times due to the beatings. The matter has gone to the police. But what she hasn’t shared with the police or the doctor is that her husband also rapes her every night because she refuses to have sex with him as she doesn’t want to do it anymore.

Nirbhaya was a young and bright student living in Delhi. While returning home in public transport, she was gang raped and murdered by 5 strangers on board the bus. She succumbed to her injuries in a hospital.

Sexual Violence in India is part of the daily experiences of many women and children. Statistics say that most of it occurs within family and neighbourhood set ups. Gender intersects with caste, class, age, profession and others to make women and children more vulnerable. Victims face various life threatening experiences if they protest or report the violence. They face several health and social and psychological issues which may persist all through their lives. Of those who report the violence, most drop out of the judicial process mid way because of these reasons, leading to a ver low conviction rate.

Certainty of punishment is a larger deterrent than severity per se. for certainty, therefore, following are essential components- registration of offence; fair and professional investigation; fair and speedy trial; victim compensation and support during investigation and trial; social, physical and psychological rehabilitation of the victim and punishment to the convicted persons.

If there is focus only on the latter, I don’t consider it justice for women. And if the latter is handed out in its severest form only to the poor and downtrodden, I dont consider it justice for women. How about all the other women, as in the stories above? How is a rape less violent or less severe from another? How is a rape rarest of rare and others not?

Since the focus has been only on the latter, my guess is that all other violent sexual offences against women and children would continue unabated, which they are.

Violence is violence. Whether done in contravention of law or with sanction of law. Whether against a victim or against an offender. Death being penultimate violence.

Sexy

I posted this picture of mine on my Facebook profile with this caption- “Goa, sometime ago…
During a round of morning market street photography, a flower seller helping me put flowers in my hair. I had to purchase the flowers because I smelled them out of curiosity.
I thought as a tourist I had the liberty to wear flowers in my hair and around my neck, nobody knew me there…

Picture courtesy @Harshada

But I was actually not fishing for compliments this time. This picture was taken last week when I was on a photo shoot with a friend in a busy market in Goa, a little while before this incident happened that I want to share today on Women’s Day.

So you know how I was looking, what I was wearing and what I was doing when it happened. My friend and me were walking back to the parking, with about a 100 m of distance between us. I had lagged a little behind because I was checking WhatsApp on my phone.

Suddenly I got distracted with a sound, a word, a gesture targeted at me. I looked left and located a man on the left of the road standing with his bike.

And it occurred to me that he was the one who had hurled the adjective “Sexy” towards me.

He was still staring at me with a smile on his face. Confident. Proud. Chivalrous.

For a split second, I found myself vacillating. To stop or to look away and walk away. I stopped.

Me: What did you say ?

He: What did I say ?

Me: You don’t know what you said ?

He: (inaudible mumbling)

Something came over me, probably decades of humiliation, anger and frustration. I didn’t want to feel and act helpless today and I didn’t do it.

Me: You pathetic, miserable, rotten, wild creature, how dare to say this to me? Who do you think I am? Do I have self respect? Do I have dignity? What do you think you are? You little piece of shit… you think you stand there and do anything and you will get away with it ? I am going to call the police. You come from UP-Bihar and do this to women.

He: (still has the audacity to reply) Are you not from UP-Bihar?

Me: Who are you to ask me who I am? Look at yourself you shit. You are going about ruining the name of the place you come from.

He: I said ‘taxi’….

Me: You think I am a fool, you idiot, you are telling me this, what do you think I am? I know people like you very well. How dare you… I will ruin your life. You will regret what you did today. Come on everyone (I was yelling, almost imploring), come see this guy. He is standing here and saying bad things to passing women. See he is an animal, not even a human being. Doesn’t have sisters in his family.

(He just stood, frozen, then sneaked left and right if people were watching), and I went on)

Now you dare do this again, to any other woman. Now you be ashamed of what you did. And you remember this day…

(I suddenly felt I was done, I felt exhausted, very emotional, almost engaging in pathetic fallacy. I realised that I had accomplished what I wanted to, that I needed to close this. His looked meek and vanquished now. And in disbelief)

Me: Considering you as a younger brother I forgive you and I’m not calling the police. But you remember this before you ever dare to do this again, to anyone.

And I walked away. Feeling proud of myself. This was something that I did for the first time in my life. I’ve had enough. Why should I take this? And how long ? I don’t deserve this. It’s my right to roam freely on the streets. I am a free citizen.

Did I vent out the anger repressed from decades ? Probably yes !

On my return I narrated this to my son. He said “You did a good thing Mumma”.

Hair Love

Hair Love is about compassion and care economy. The most important message for me though, was that each child deserves to be loved and cared for, no matter what the circumstances. And , “…all it takes is a little bit of work and a whole lot of love !”

It did take me back to my own childhood, school days, when I would insist on keeping my hair long, very long. Amidst cooking, packing tiffin, bags, water bottles and dressing up for 2 school going daughters, my long hair would add another item to my mother’s to do list- tying my plats.

She suggested that I cut my hair short. But I resisted the very idea. I told her that I will learn to tie my hair myself and I did.

Such was the extent of my hair love. After all long hair meant beauty, compliments and attention. It was important to look my prettiest best, at all times, at all cost.

I was a kid, but I knew this. My son is a kid and he knows this too.

My little kid in love with my long hair, which I didn’t know till I cut my hair short

When I cut my hair short last year, he was upset. He ordered me to grow my hair longer. Because it looks pretty.

As for me, after maintaining long hair for quiet long, when I cut them short, I felt liberated, released, emancipated.

But probably I wasn’t truly emancipated then. As guided by my hairdresser, I first did a keratin therapy on my hair before cutting them short. Hair must be straight if you want to keep them short. Curly hair and cut short, a complete no no. It doesn’t look pretty.

Now the effect of keratin was indeed pretty. Another round of beauty, compliments and attention.

Keratin therapy requires a gruelling session of 3-4 hours with chemical hair packs and alternate ironing/heating and washing

So pretty that it washed away the pain of sitting in a chemical hair mask for a couple of hours and several washes and certainly a deep hole in the pocket. (Rather wallet, as I hardly find pockets in readymade clothes designed for women.)

But, the beauty, compliments and attention lasted only for a couple of months. Then it was time for another round of Keratin.

Going through it all again, and again… I told myself that I can’t do it, I needn’t do it. I need to accept my hair the way it is, curly or wavy, whatever one may call it. The day I told this to myself, that was when I believe I was truly liberated.

Wavy and short yet happy hair

And when my mom cut her locks, sported short hair for probably for the first time in her life, I’m not sure if she felt anxious or relieved; I felt that it was her day of deliverance.

My mother with half the length of her original length

I’ve not stopped being in love with long hair. Long years of conditioning and continued reinforcement cannot be erased just like that. But I need a break, how long, I don’t yet.

When I was young, I remember that long hair held me back from running around freely, playing and physical activity, till they were a part of my life.

Looking pretty has occupied (or still occupies) my mind way too much. How to style my hair, to tie or not to tie, how to tie, what adornments to put into it and so on…

But long hair require time, energy and effort for their upkeep. Short hair have made my life so much more easier and hassle free.

Finally, it has helped me break another mental barrier. It has changed my self dialogue from “I can’t” to “I can”.

I have to move on from one to the next. It’s a process of self discovery. What holds me back. What would it take for me to accept myself as what I am?

May be, “…all it takes is a little bit of work and a whole lot of love !”. Love for myself.

1. https://shadowandact.com/hair-love-wins-best-animated-short-film-at-2020-oscars

Fear of Separation

Mumma I am unable to sleep. Yes baby, its coz of cold and blocked nose that giving you breathlessness.

No Mumma, I’m scared. The memories of Eco Park are coming back to me and making scared.

That day, bad luck was really bad. I intervene, but there was good luck too, which united us, after you briefly got lost. No no! (Protest) It was really bad luck.

I was playing in a swing and suddenly I saw Papa wasn’t there where he was standing. I started calling him but he didn’t come. I got so scared.

I started running towards you Mumma, place where we had left you some time ago. I was running and crying, running and crying when suddenly I heard you call out my name. And I saw you there under the tree.

I thought I was lost. I was very scared. The memory comes to me again and again.

I think we should never again go to crowded places like Eco Park. I have decided I will never go again to such places. OK Mumma ?

I hugged his little body and wiped tears from his eyes.

You shall overcome, I thought.

My Dear Child

My Dear Child

I said thank you to you so many times yesterday, that you felt weird when I said it again at the end of the day, when we were in bed.

You held my hand and lead me across a fence, a fence of my fears, built by me myself.

Hesitant and reluctant, I told you that I’m scared. I’ve not done this in a decade.

I couldn’t elaborate, though I have this feeling that you understand or would understand. That I’ve been brought up as a ‘girl’, to be a ‘woman’.

One who didn’t get the opportunity to play, to run around, to be adventurous. Who came to accept that adventure is not for her. She’s meant to be delicate, soft, pretty, submissive, slow moving and someone who needs to be protected. She’s not meant to be tough, hardy, sporty, agile and someone competitive, ruthless and aggressive. Like Simone de Beauvoir says, “One is not born a woman, but become one !”

You simply said, what you’ve not done in a decade, you can do now ! Simple !

You are right my child. I can undo and I can erase decades of conditioning. I’ve done it earlier, I can continue to do so as I go about my life. I need not be a prisoner to my past. No girl, no woman need be.

It’s only one life. I can either live it freely and make the best of it. Or loose it in shackles created by the society and accepted and adopted by me.

But let me tell you, it’s not easy. The breaking free from the many prisons built around me, some real, some virtual. 

Though the first step is taken.

So, cornered and blackmailed by you, I stepped into the raft, my heart pounding, my body stiff with fear and anxiety. You, on the other hand, bore a bright smile on your face, ready to embrace the ups and downs that were to come. Together we tumbled into the depth and the darkness of the ride, followed by calm and light. It was scary for a little while, pleasant for the most part. I was happy ! Elated ! And I said the first of my thank yous to you.

In our raft, there were 2 more kids, with their dad. Where was their mom, I wondered. I was happy again that I was with you, sharing with you this joy, this moment. Isn’t life made of such moments?

I saw those kids again at a restaurant. This time their mom was with them. She was pretty, delicate and dressed up to her best. The jewellery, the makeup and the hair, all complemented her persona.

But, wait a minute, had I spent so much time and effort in getting dressed up, would I have spoilt it all for a ride? Probably not. The mascara, artificial eye lashes, the ironed hair and the nail art, it was all perfect. Water and that too in splashes, would just ruin everything, even if it all waterproof makeup.

Speaking from my own experience, looking pretty and dressing up well often becomes an end in itself. It has made me miss so many moments of joy that I could have shared with my loved ones. That I could have added to my book of life. And that might have added to my confidence and self worth, more than any amount of dressing up could do. 

I ask myself, when will I accept myself the way I am. My skin tone, my being thin, my wavy hair, my ageing. Another prison. Prisoner again.

Thank you again my child for teaching me what’s important in life.

Women in Portraits

Last couple of years I visited few cities in India and occasionally in Korea, Bhutan and UAE, sometimes as a tourist, sometimes as a trainee and sometimes as a photographer. I made the best of these opportunities, as much as I could, by shooting in public places and streets to experience and document the diversity in cultures and peoples.

Female faces, figures and symbols appeared predominantly in my photographs.

I’ve had this knowledge for quiet some time that my lens gets attracted to the feminine. Though it is difficult for me to say why. I can at best make a few guesses. It could be beauty, aesthetics, colours or something else that instantly catches attention. On the other hand, it could be something deeply personal, an identification or an empathetic understanding or affiliation. However distinct the protagonist may be from me and my lived realities, we connect with each other at some level. There is something that binds us. Woman to woman. We share our gendered experiences, even if separated by geography, language and culture.

I invite you to be a viewer of my photo story woven around the female protagonists captured by my camera, most of whom are strangers to me, though not all.

For me, as a photographer, each portrait is a unique moment in time, when her eyes meet mine, directly or through my camera. That moment may evoke multiple emotions in her- surprise, amazement, astonishment, curiosity, suspicion, amusement, joy, pride or a complex combination of these- bringing about a smile, a frown, shyness, puzzled look, raised eyebrows…. and so on…

Sometimes our eyes meet after the shutter has dropped. I smile. She smiles back. Or doesn’t. Talks to me, or ignores me continuing her work or turns and walks away. Or invites me in and offers water or tea. Expresses interest in me, who I am, where am I from, what do I do.

All this happens usually after I’ve frozen my frame. The pictures being candid, offer the viewer the opportunity to observe natural expressions, behaviours and actions in the natural settings of the respective protagonists, where they live or work or commute on an everyday basis. The compositional elements in the form of lines, frames, background-foreground and light-shadow help build up the complete story, making the whole greater than the sum of its parts.

As you view a picture in the photo story, it is possible that you may find yourself looking at a poor woman from a third world country sitting there in a traditional attire. Or a so-called modern dressed woman from Seoul or Dubai walking in her high heel shoes. There may be cues leading you to such an interpretation. Your minds may be programmed for this.

But a simplistic and superficial viewing as above may reduce a protagonist to an object. Devoid of individuality. Devoid of complexity. Simplified. Stereotyped. Evoking pity or sympathy on one hand and adulation and romanticism on the other. They are both different from empathy.

As a photographer, it has been my endeavour to not allow this to happen. Each of them is a subject, has a subjective reality, a personality, a vocation, a unique life experience and an agency; which is what each picture attempts to portray. Each portrait is a complex story, is a layered narrative, which is to be seen from her eyes, experienced from her perspective and viewed from her standpoint.

In that sense this photo story is an attempt to make the invisible visible. It is a tribute to each of the protagonists for being the women that they are. It is a celebration of each unique feminine persona.

However, even when the viewer attempts to view a picture from the perspective of the protagonist, each picture would be interpreted in different ways by different viewers. This is natural and bound to happen. Each viewer would bring in his or her world view. Each unique story then builds a connection between that viewer and the protagonist.

If I ask you to write 3 sentences on any one picture from the story, and you do so, those sentences are likely to provide you an insight into your own values, beliefs and attitudes. And i invite each of the viewer to do so, to write what you see, what you think, what you feel; for atleast one picture from the collection.